Unsent text message to Connor

I wonder if I’m ever the reason for your sleepless hours the way you’re often the cause of mine.

You at the end of the day deserve it. You weren't always the kindest nor was I. You wanted a commitment from me desperately that you never gave. I hope you stay happy I hope the excitement you feel with them never fades I hope you never have wandering eyes or regrets. I hope you never let resentments fester. I hope…

The chemistry we had, the conversations, the tension—I know those were real. I know you said you had already given me chances, and that we didn’t match because I was too emotional for you. But sometimes, I can’t help feeling like there are still words left unsaid on your end, like a part of you wanted this to work…

It's been a year. My algorithm has been cleansed from anything involving aviation. But I opened my social media yesterday and yung bumungad sa'kin was that emergency landing incident from Pampanga. I already deleted my account that has the slightest connection to you—kasi alam naman nating di ka na babalik after…

I can't believe you've made me hate you this much, far more than anybody ever that has been in my life. I cannot recall a single good things about us or you in general anymore. You are a plague that I foolishly let into my life.

My life has been made much worse over this, and it just keeps going. I've recovered some…

I was thinking about a text you sent me and for some reason I got the vibe that you’re going to be a super happy guy after you get to know me. I don’t know why. But I was imagining you being this super happy guy which is funny because everything so far makes you seem pretty depressed