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Five years
Five years, I loved you.
And for those five years, you said you loved me to
You said you loved me but by the way you left me, I don’t think that was ever true. I was a placeholder in your stack of cards well you waited for the right one to come into play. I was the pawn in your game of chess and you played me… and I let you.
Love, love is something that should be cherished, something that you truly feel, and I can without a doubt say that I felt that way for you. I felt that way for you, and you weaponized it against me. You tugged and pulled my heart strings until they snapped and recoiled at the things you were doing,the things you were saying. You pulled me down till you couldn’t anymore and left me drowning. Left me broken, confused, but enlightened at the same time.
And now here I am, a shell of who I was but better in the end. Better because I know better now. Better Because at the end of the day, it’s me for me now. Not me for you, and you for you. Everyday I take a step towards getting better, a step away from the life I lived with you but I still look back fondly, even threw all the pain, the hardships, the late nights crying wondering why… all because you taught me a truly valuable lesson.
If you’re fighting the fight yourself, then they’re not worth fighting for at all. You can’t save a sinking ship without bailing out all the water first and if that persons just dumping more in, then they’re only drowning you. You’ll never float free, and the only way to do that is to let go and I think I finally have…
I’ll always love you J
With love, and happiness
M
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