Unsent text message to Jennifer

I miss you so much, dude. It has been more than a year since I last saw you. I always dreamed of us going to the same university, but here we are, miles away. Maybe it was better for our future, but damn, I miss you so much. I have friends around, but no one will ever replace you. It's funny how I go through your…

I miss you so bad today idk why, but it’s just in my head. I miss the feeling of someone to talk to and know references I’m talking about. I don’t want to date anyone at this point because most of the people I talk to aren’t even like you. If you see this I just miss the living life out of you. I want everything that…

i hate that why do you keep checking upon me once every month like its normal? you flirt with bunch of girls and keep bringing up about some stupid ex of yours to me but you say you love me and want to marry me and all that bs you say stuff to the point where im confused i cant understand whether its sarcasm or real…

Moving out is so hard. I wish I didn’t have to do this. You’re not even here, and I keep wishing I could turn to you and tell you how much it hurts.

I wish you hadn’t hurt me. I wish we could have kept living our life together. There were so many ordinary days I still wanted with you. I thought we’d have more time.

I sti…

Ashton,

I've got to stop using video assistance anytime I need to release. Mainly because it's just not good for the old brain, but secondary reason is that I just keep coming across videos of you with different guys lol. The latest one you're recording yourself in the mirrors on the closet doors in some apartment…

I banished the feelings. Return to sender. I believe we can choose who we love. It can’t all be decided by the fates and fluctuations in hormones, right? Give me some power back, please. I’m begging you to let me let you go…