Unsent text message to Trevor

Crazy how much time I spent defending myself against accusations that turned out to fit the accuser a whole lot better than they ever fit me.

I was told I wanted to “**** around.” I didn’t. But we know who did.

I was told I wasn’t over my past. I was. And now we know who wasn’t.

Funny how I spent years defending myself…

I’m in love with you and I can’t help it

Hi,

It’s me. I’m so ******* sorry. I’m such a huge **** up. I know you probably never want to talk to me again. You made that pretty clear. I just wanted to say hi. I miss you. I know that’s not even fair to say. I hope you’re doing well. I’m sorry for everything I did to ruin this. I take full responsibility. I mean…

I miss you samantha smith. With everything in me. You were and are my everything. I still wish I could talk to you sometimes. Even if im different now and I dont know if youd like me or not.

And you accused me of not being over my ex? 😂

The projection is almost impressive.

You spent so much time questioning whether I was still stuck on someone else, all while apparently carrying a torch bright enough to light up the whole damn room.

That’s the funny thing about projection: eventually, the accusation starts…

The clock keeps ticking and time seems to blend together I feel alone in a crowded room I look for you in places I know I’ll never find you because honestly it’s easier than facing the truth of it all . He wanted something different from day one , he hasn’t been happy . And I’m left here wondering what the hell went…