Unsent text message to Taylor

I’m so sorry baby.

I’m so sorry I lied to you. That I told you I wasn’t hanging out with A again. I’m so sorry I did it so many times.

I knew it wasn’t going to work out. I knew I didn’t want to be with him. The kid in me just had to see if it was possible.

He’s a POS and you are my true love. He may be my first but you…

I want to build a life, a world, a reality with you full of magic, enchantment, and a real life fantasy. Something tangible that withstands the sands of time, because time never forgets and I could never forget how madly in love with you I still am. I dream of skylines and foreign places with you full of beautiful…

I don't want you to suffer, but I do worry moreso for him than for you. You say you love him when you had been coming back home to me. You say you love each other but he gave you every chance to leave before you cheated and left me. I really hope you try being alone for a while once your relationship runs its course…

Do you want me to forget about us ?

Do you want me to not feel hurt and move on like me and you had never met ?

Do you want me to not love you ?

Do you want yourself to not love me…

I don’t know what to say, just can I see you? Can we talk? I just need to see it in your eyes, if you’re truly happy.. I hope you are.. I know the silence is my answer, right? I have pick myself up and move on. Your happiness is all that matters to me..

Damn girl….we haven’t seen each other in months and haven’t talked over a month and I somehow still feel close to you. Only if you knew what I’ve been going through I wish I could share with you. Hopefully you feel the same. I guess that’s my problem. I never known how you feel. About ready to say **** the boundaries.