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I caught myself calling you perfect again. Like nothing you did was ever wrong. I mean you’re great, but not perfect. You wanted me to be friendly and casual after our relationship. You were confused when I was sad saying that I still had you. But I didn’t “still have you” not in the way I wanted and you knew that’s what I meant. If you didn’t then, no offense, but you’re not as smart as I thought. You called me the day after we broke up like everything was fine. When I tried to explain my feelings a week later you made it seem like it was so small and silly not directly but in the constant explanation to every feeling I gave you. Like there was a valid reason for you to make me feel that way. You asked if you could have my favorite shirt because you liked it too, surprisingly that was the first time I stood my ground. Over a dumb ******* shirt. A shirt that I ended up losing anyways. I’m still glad I didn’t give it to you though. You told me over and over that I said I understood the night you broke up with me you even try to tell me that you didn’t break up with me like I actually agreed. I literally freaked the **** out…what about that is agreeing. I don’t think it’s wrong for me to say you broke up with me.. and the thing is I told people it was technically agreed on even though I didn’t want to. I didn’t even start by saying you broke up with me. But every time I said it, it felt wrong because I didn’t want it I wanted to work on things but all I could do was freak out. I can’t even fight for my feelings when I need to the most. How ******* pathetic is that? Every time I write to you on here i realize why you didn’t see us working. I’m simply pathetic and you’re not. Someone like you couldn’t possibly be happy stuck with me. I know that’s why you left. I’m very sure of it.
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