Unsent text message to Patricia

So after what seemed to be about five months of no contact. You have unblocked me.

I know I blocked you on Instagram and on Facebook. I had to for my sake, I don't know what got into me and I decided to unblock you but I did. It's probably a bad decision for me.

Then, you blocked me which made me feel relieved and…

It’s probably just my limerent brain but your words on Friday kinda left me for dead. What do you mean you wouldn’t be able to sleep and would follow? I was in shock and tried to play it off. But honestly, once that sunk in, I haven’t been able to function. You make me feel a little crazy. But I just need to keep…

I saw a video that reminded me of you. Pole vaulting. I hope you’re well.

Look at all this ******** you created, lie after lie after lie. Every time I’ve made mistakes I have owned them and got better. Proved how capable, supporting, reassuring I was, how I pushed for you to experience new things and say yes to more. I spent so long talking you up.

In return you talked me down and made…

I thought I'd never get over what you did but sometimes someone is right there. The one who told me everything and was concerned because I'm to good to be with you. Well let's say we both feel the same. Thanks ex I never thought I'd say that but your horrible ways led me to him. Remember when you find out don't blame…

In these moments i think about you. I miss my best friend and partner but it was for the best how things ended with no contact. It would have been too painful to keep going because I love you and I think i always will.

Happy birthday!

Maybe I’ll see you around.