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I miss you. I know I shouldn’t. Everyone says I’m better off without you.
You didn’t even have the decency to tell me what you were upset about this time; you just ghosted me.
The insecurities that you struggled with were difficult for both of us. You said that was the reason you said hurtful things about me - that it caused you to falsely accuse me, monitor my conversations and start fights so often.
You said you couldn’t help it and I tried to be understanding. After the 10th, 50th or 100th time it felt like it was a choice you made or who you really were.
All I wanted was to be worthy of your kindness and respect.
I wish I could have done more to help you get past your issues. It felt like nothing was good enough because you kept moving the goalposts.
I wish you could have showed me you loved me in a kinder way, rather than turning your fear into anger against me.
I feel terrible for the times I upset or disappointed you. I am sorry I wasn’t perfect.
I miss making you laugh, the connection I thought we shared, and the good times we had.
I loved you so much - if only you had believed that instead of your insecurities.
I feel like an idiot for loving someone who hurt me so much.
I still care about you and I miss you. I think I always will.
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