Unsent text message to Cameron

When we first met, I thought you were the coolest person ever. Then we got closer and closer and I never knew that you were this funny, kind, lovely and just overall amazing. But I realized, maybe the way I see you isn't just a friend thing. I think I like you. A lot. Like a lot lot. You are stunning and wonderful but…

I've begun to forget you. I wonder how long it'll take before you've fully slipped my mind. Years of memory akin to dust in the wind. I once told you that if you wanted to leave, I'd let you go with relative ease.

The fact it has taken nearly 11 months and 2 failed relationships(Situationships?) during that time is a…

I clearly remember looking into your blue eyes for the very first time….when the office goes quiet and nothing else matters but you….girl you got me! Just keep this to yourself. Miss you like crazy. I’ll keep respecting your boundaries.

Each time I feel like we get into a rhythm and things feel normal (the new normal) you always back off.

Did I do something wrong? Did I say something wrong? If I did please tell me so I don’t do it again.

I’m trying so hard, but it just seems like you wouldn’t even care if something happened to me. That if you never…

I miss how open we used to be with each other, being able to talk about all sorts of interesting things and share our thoughts so freely. Honestly, I don’t think I’ve ever been as open with someone as I was with you. It was such a nice feeling to have someone who wasn’t just my partner, but also my best friend…

I'm looking for a reason. One that will keep me here this time. It's this damn season. I pray for harmony here this time.