Unsent text message to Taylor

I desperately want to send this to you, so you can understand what you did to me. How much you hurt me. If you sat down and told me what was bothering you in the relationship, we could have worked it out. Instead all I got was "its not you its me, im damaged and can't explain it" Sir, you are a grown *** man. How…

My friend told me that you’d been contacting her and her ex, trying to check in, and that they were both wondering what the hell you wanted and why you kept bothering them. And honestly, I’m actually crying right now because I’m just so sorry. I’m so sorry that you go through this, too, whether it’s boredom…

Just to try and get under my skin its pretty pathetic tbh but you and your circle of pos people actually think its affecting me when in reality im perfectly fine and could give a **** less I only reached out to say i was sorry for my wrong doings and i asked how you've been because i genuinely hope your life is going…

reminded me that I've been hanging onto something i fabricated in my head. the feelings were never mutual. I thought that, maybe, there was an unspoken thing between us. That, maybe, at some point in the future it could be something. I thought you were communicating with me through music. Boy, am I dumb. I've been…

Should I move on because you already have, or should I hold on never knowing if you actually cared enough to show change

Not talking to you for months is driving me a bit insane quite frankly, not sure if you didn’t know but Im pretty sure I told you I needed you. And that I wanted you. And that I couldn’t live without you because if I did it would be pointless. And that you’re all that I want in every shape and form in all moments…