Unsent text message to Shane

I have this distinct feeling that this new life of yours isn’t going as amazing as you thought it would. Or maybe it’s my hopes. I’m not sure yet, but what I do know, I hope it fails miserably and you continue to learn that you’re the reason people leave you.

For a long time, I kept finding you in little things. A song playing in a café, a familiar street, a message I almost sent before remembering that we don't talk anymore.

I used to wonder if you missed me the way I missed you. Whether you ever stopped in the middle of your day and remembered us, even for a second.

Some…

I am touchstarved & a picky eater. I'd rather 'starve' then touch someone else. I know i can ask but the uncertainty of what today's about makes me more insecure then usual.

Can u pretty please come here ? They won't notice

As the post says I wish I can take your pain away. All of it. You have been suffering so long and life has been cruel to you. You opened up to me which for me was surprising looking at how we were basically thinking we will never talk again 2.5 months ago. But all I thought about is how I just wanted to hug you and…

If I could ask you one serious question to decide whether this is worth holding on to or not it would be. Do you ever think of me, outside of our ‘shared environment’? And I don’t mean work related thoughts.

I know i got upset and i shouldn't have. When u introduced me you said " this is my boyfd_.....um my person, ya this is my person... " and u looked at somebody in the group. Who was it? Why did you? We have been together a year and for some reason you dk if I'm your boyfriend or not? The whole thing felt so weird to…