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You said you still loved me but I don’t have as much confidence that you do. It has been three weeks. I won’t contact you - you said you’d contact me. And as every day passes, I think, He may never. This may be it.
I still feel so lost. I stopped going on dates because it became so clear I wouldn’t find what we had and I needed to first get my head clear.
I am going to my trauma therapy. I am trying to resolve all the stuff that got in our way. I am seeing friends, building my independent life back up.
But I was just happier with you. I know we had our issues. But they all just didn’t seem like dealbreakers to me. They were personality traits we could navigate around so long as we both loved eachother.
I know I hurt you. You hurt me too.
I am just so afraid that you’ll never come back.
I wonder how you are, how your trip was, how work is. I want to send you funny memes or articles. I want to watch tv with you. I see fall foliage hikes and want to propose we go. I wonder if we’ll ever go camping.
J and Z miss you. I want to tell you what J is up to.
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