Unsent text message to Gavin

I would have changed myself for you. I would have molded and melted into any shape that you wanted just so I could be with you. If you didn’t love me, I hated myself, and I would morph time and time again. I would have been absolutely anything you ever wanted me to be. All you had to do was continue to be yourself. I…

Wow I can’t believe I can’t be apart of your life anymore…7 fkn years After everything that we been through After everything we’ve done for each other I took you out of your fkn shell I ******* loved you heavily, I always wanted to build this life with you and have the perfect life and now it’s completely ruined I’ll…

eveerything is weird and wonky in my head. this week was hard for me and now we have to repeat soon. i want everything to be okay. i am so scared?. i wish you could live my life for a month. you would be so depressed. nothing would make sense. you would be angry all the time. meditation wouldn't **** the pain. and…

I just text you and you're being weird af. Why? *** is up with you. Idk why i even bother to try salvage any type of relationship with u. In the past year u forgot how to talk? Why can't u just put all the bs aside? Yes, i realize i was with her a year and ik fs u sabotaged it. Idc about that. I only care about u.

You want something else. You have a mission you are after me for something else. Do you want to physically hurt me? What do you want ? This is getting too much.

Every time i have let myself get caught up in missing you and thinking about how much i care about you. I always end up regretting it. And i will this time too. But u did get rid of her... .