Unsent text message to Savannah

eveerything is weird and wonky in my head. this week was hard for me and now we have to repeat soon. i want everything to be okay. i am so scared?. i wish you could live my life for a month. you would be so depressed. nothing would make sense. you would be angry all the time. meditation wouldn't **** the pain. and…

I just text you and you're being weird af. Why? *** is up with you. Idk why i even bother to try salvage any type of relationship with u. In the past year u forgot how to talk? Why can't u just put all the bs aside? Yes, i realize i was with her a year and ik fs u sabotaged it. Idc about that. I only care about u.

You want something else. You have a mission you are after me for something else. Do you want to physically hurt me? What do you want ? This is getting too much.

Every time i have let myself get caught up in missing you and thinking about how much i care about you. I always end up regretting it. And i will this time too. But u did get rid of her... .

Your flaw wasn't the math it was assuming I wouldn't do the calculation

Your mistake was assuming you could outsmart someone who's already three steps ahead of you

You set the trap for a fool so I'm not sure what you're going to do with me

Thanx…

I wish you could understand how much I still love you. I wish you would understand how much pain you have put me through and how many times I’ve closed my eyes and begged god to shine light on you to want to change and want us together again. I wished so many times i woke up from the nightmare. I wished you had never…