Unsent text message to Rachel

We've been broken up 5 months. It disgusts me. I threw all of your stuff away into a purple bag after you betrayed me. How the hell do you even dare to wear the special necklace I gave you and smile? You caused me so much pain. I hope you suffer and that "Necklace' marking a special moment in our life brings you bad…

There hasn’t been a single day since you left that I don’t think about you. There hasn’t been a single day since you left that I don’t miss you. And idk what to do with it. I tried moving on, I talk about it in therapy, I hang out with people and try to distract myself. Even when I’m crazy happy I still feel a…

I miss you so much, dude. It has been more than a year since I last saw you. I always dreamed of us going to the same university, but here we are, miles away. Maybe it was better for our future, but damn, I miss you so much. I have friends around, but no one will ever replace you. It's funny how I go through your…

I miss you so bad today idk why, but it’s just in my head. I miss the feeling of someone to talk to and know references I’m talking about. I don’t want to date anyone at this point because most of the people I talk to aren’t even like you. If you see this I just miss the living life out of you. I want everything that…

i hate that why do you keep checking upon me once every month like its normal? you flirt with bunch of girls and keep bringing up about some stupid ex of yours to me but you say you love me and want to marry me and all that bs you say stuff to the point where im confused i cant understand whether its sarcasm or real…

Moving out is so hard. I wish I didn’t have to do this. You’re not even here, and I keep wishing I could turn to you and tell you how much it hurts.

I wish you hadn’t hurt me. I wish we could have kept living our life together. There were so many ordinary days I still wanted with you. I thought we’d have more time.

I sti…