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I miss you so bad love. I'm still thinking about you all day long. I catch myself looking at my phone way too much, hoping that you will reach out. I miss your head resting on my chest and holding you close. I miss your touch. The longer I'm deprived of it, the more I want it. We have fun no matter what we do. I miss laughing with you and gazing deep into your radiant eyes. I will always be someone that will wipe your tears away if you let me prove that I can change. I know I keep messing up but soul is genuine. I would do anything for you.
You have an effect on me like no other woman. You turn me on more than anyone I've ever been with. I light up as soon as I see you. When you say you look ugly, I see nothing but pure beauty. I wish you knew how wrong you were. Just thinking of you gives me butterflies but right now they're sad butterflies with wings on fire. I can't get you out of my head and I wonder if you miss me just as much?
The pain in my gut eats me alive and makes want to continue drinking. I know that my relationship to alcohol is a major part of the problem. I feel hope is lost now, so my motivation to stop is hard to grasp. I feel the romantic love may be dead and my heart is dying. This depression eats me alive and I don't have good coping mechanisms. I know that things are all my fault. That's why you needed space. I wish you knew how much I love you. I had a sinking feeling that things would never work out, even though you say you love me too. Escaping is my old habit and I have insecurities that I need to conquer.
I should have checked in with how you were doing in my last messages. I wasn't trying to focus on myself; I just wanted you to know that I was taking steps to make things better. I didn't want you to worry and call me out of worry like last time. I hope the next time you call is because you miss me. When we last talked on the phone, you didn't want to tell me how you were doing. I understand that the hurt made it so you weren't ready to be so open with me again. That's why I didn't bother to ask in the text messages. I worry about you a lot and I hope you're doing ok. I think about you way more than I think about myself. I miss you so much love and I hope our time away won't be much longer.
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