Unsent text message to Ava

I can’t tell you that you are a part of what eats away at me. I want to be able to love you and be a good supportive friend. I just need to work through so many things to reach that.

I wasnt prepared for the nightmares that working through my problems would bring. I had always tried to protect my peace by suppressing…

You get this tight curl at the edges of your eyes when you smile. You squint. You’re a squinting smiler. I hate the way your face lit up when you made a remark about my shampoo. You asked if it was new, you liked it. I can’t forget that face you made. **** you and that ******* face. **** u **** u **** u **** u I miss…

Things were different. I just see you in a different light now. Your true colors.

**** you. **** everything about you. You suck... **** probably. Stop lying to yourself, everyone else sees through the ********!

I never thought you’d want me that wasn’t the reason. I just had your back. Because that’s who I am. Didn’t expect ****. Being friends was one sided tho. That is obvious. Best of luck to you.

It's all or nothing. You want to sit on the sidelines unmoving I'll cut you off like the last one. You either have my back or you can be dead to me. I never deserved it. You know that.