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I might later. Who knows. Yesterday I had a dream about you. The usual one that involves you. I find you, you forgive me, we are together enjoying each other’s company again. It makes me miss you. It was after my post about crying about you, so that’s not what triggered that post. The post is probably what triggered the dream if anything. It’s crazy how I can feel so negative about you and my brain decides to give me something so positive. I know under all of this hate is just pain. I’m just sad I didn’t get to love you as long as I wanted to. Now I’m forced to love you in silence until I get over it. It really sucks. I hope that one day I will feel the love I deserve and someone will allow me to give them that love back. It’s fine if it takes a long time because I genuinely don’t want to go through this again. I know I can’t control that but if it’s really not possible then I guess I’m better off alone. I don’t want to live the rest of my life hoping for someone to stay and that’s just all relationships are. I guess I’ll just wait to get over you and just be over it all forever. This feeling isn’t worth my love. No one in the world is worth this feeling. I guess I’ll find out when I’m finally over you, if I ever get to be.
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