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I’ma let you do you the same way I’m doing me.
Honestly, part of me still believes our story isn’t completely done. Right now it absolutely is tho. That book is shut, shoved on a shelf, and has been collecting dust for almost nine months lmaooo. You’re living your new life with your new partner, and I’m living mine. I’m doing the things I said I would do, and honestly? I’m having a ******* blast.
I’m learning who tf I am without you. I was with you for 13 years, from teenagers into adulthood, and for so long you were my whole world. I was happy in our little bubble, but I understand now that love wasn’t enough. We loved each other, but toward the end we both hurt each other trying to get our needs met, and the cycle we were in needed to end.
I still miss you. I still love you. But I’m not going looking for you, and I will never contact you again. It's been 4 months already, and well I have no reason to break it. You know how I feel, and well yeah. I’m letting you live the life you chose, and I’m choosing to keep building mine.
And maybe I’m a little delulu lol but yeah, part of me still believes there’s a sequel somewhere. I have this weird feeling we’ll reconnect someday, whether that’s months from now or, more realistically, yeeaaars from now lmao. But the difference now is that I’m not waiting for it. I’m not keeping my life on hold for some hypothetical future where we find our way back to each other.
Maybe we reconnect one day as completely different people and see what’s there. Maybe we never do. I’m finally getting to a place where I can accept either one.
I loved you with my whole heart, and part of me probably always will 🧡🐶 But I’m moving forward just like you have. If life ever brings our paths together again, Future Me can deal with that **** then. Until that day, or if never, I'm going to keep living.
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