Unsent text message to Maya

Did someone slip mushrooms in my coffee? Wth I feel giggly as **** for no reason like I’m actively sad and I’m holding back laughter and smiling. Maybe i entered psychosis to many times maybe it’s stuck around.

You’re the only one who actually cares about my past

My trauma

Why I am the way I am

I cried in the shower earlier thinking about that…

But I realize that being that eager is unattractive. And **** it doesnt even really matter because I already know where this road leads. But damn it was good to see you yesterday. Always looking fine af and ****.

and if i did i shouldve stopped writing all this bs here but did i?

Still, you linger in my thoughts , its been almost a year now, but still you linger in my thoughts. You take up the deepest places in my mind. Recently I went on a trip, it was an amazing trip, with an amazing woman! We had an epic time, but still you linger in my thoughts. I saw so many things you would have loved, I…

its been way too long. i'll be there later today. :)