Unsent text message to Gavin

I miss sharing music with YOU so much

Words are just words? Well let’s examine my ACTIONS then

I haven’t been with other men I’m creating LITERATURE about you

My actions reveal my thoughts Are about you

I am home every night…

I know exactly when it all went wrong for me and u. Remember when we first started talking? I was so crazy about you. I could never figure out if uwere serious or not. But then you texted me on Christmas eve. You needed your "teacher". U needed me. I came running too. The next day i didn't care about Christmas, all i…

I don't believe in God but you do. So whenever you're troubled I pray. Just hoping that whoever you believe in, believes in you too.

For the last few days, I’ve been writing letters to you. Letters about letting go. About moving on. About finally accepting that whatever this is, it has nowhere to go. I write everything I’m too afraid to say, then I read it back and delete it. Every single time. Because somewhere between writing I need to let you go…

Maybe it is time for me to let it go. Please do call or reach out I’d like to make peace I want good things for you and want you to have a good life even if I can’t be part of it. And I want that for me too.

If not please let there be peace I know that I do love you. 🫂