Unsent text message to Jacob

There were a couple of things this week that gave me hope despite the massive obstacles between us.

On days without you, I don't know what to do. I will try to distract myself…unsuccessfully. I hope you have fun. I miss you already. I want to text you but know I can’t. I want to hug you… but know I can’t

Thank you for…

You made a choice not a mistake.

I just want you to know that I still care about you a lot. Everything you’re dealing with and the mistakes you’ve made don’t suddenly change who you are to me or how much you mean to me. I don’t suddenly see you as a bad person because you’re struggling with these things. I just wish you knew that you don’t have to…

I know you wish I would just drop dead and I wish I could now too

I confided to you last year that I love you. Each time I try to brush it aside I know I’m not being true.. You and I were supposed to be set up. To be a couple, yet it didn’t work out that way.. There were other plans. I hoped for the best. I see so clearly now, that I have still loved you all this time. I have tired…

idk what is it about you that makes me miss you in a really intense way. I’m not looking to get you back, its just hard for me to understand how fast you moved on and forgot about me when you meant the world to me. That hurt. I’m just trying to move on. Idk how to move on and fill this hole in my chest, I feel empty…