Unsent text message to Samantha

I know you wish I would just drop dead and I wish I could now too

I confided to you last year that I love you. Each time I try to brush it aside I know I’m not being true.. You and I were supposed to be set up. To be a couple, yet it didn’t work out that way.. There were other plans. I hoped for the best. I see so clearly now, that I have still loved you all this time. I have tired…

idk what is it about you that makes me miss you in a really intense way. I’m not looking to get you back, its just hard for me to understand how fast you moved on and forgot about me when you meant the world to me. That hurt. I’m just trying to move on. Idk how to move on and fill this hole in my chest, I feel empty…

But I really always have loved you

You caught my eye and I couldn't stop thinking about you. Your bright colors and contrasting patterns. I realize now that like the Dart Frog or the Blue Ringed Octopus, nature made your appearance extravagant as a warning but...

You are a poison that I would willingly consume again.

You blocked me from everywhere, I just wanted to come clean to you on WhatsApp but I guess you didn’t even read those messages. I don’t hate you. I won’t harm you. I have nothing against you My only crime was loving you. I am sorry for everything. I am hurting to lose you but I can’t force you to like me when you hate…