Unsent text message to Grace

we're at the stage of things where i've finally started opening up to other people. where enough bait has been dangled for me that i'm hanging on the hook, gasping for air. and i'm being reminded that there's no chance for it to be me. so now i've started rejecting people i would have said yes to, again. and the next…

Hi I know you’ll never see this but I think you’re really cute. I always see you on my bus to college and you stand out so much especially with that long brown hair. I think it really suits you and i WISH i could pull the same thing off. You’re handsome and you seem so full of joy but i’m too scared to even talk to…

i just want something to be for me. and to know it's for me. and to know it's you who wants me to know it's for me. i go a little crazier every time i think i see it. i go a little crazier hoping. and. idk how to tell you it's you i want. because you took that choice from me. so i just assume that's not what you want.

Would you like to come over and use my face as a chair? In the most loving way possible....

You make me so weak. So pathetic and easy whenever you call for me. The moment you say please my ability to stand firm on my decisions wavers. The softest spot inside my heart is reserved only for you and no matter how hard I try I cannot harden it.

One last time

Tell me you don't feel it

Need it

Crave it…