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Dear A, Idk why I let you use me again. I had known you for over 2 years, knew exactly what you were like, and let you do it anyway. I wanted to give you the benefit of the doubt. I knew I shouldn’t have but I did it anyway. You’re a pathological liar and you don’t care about me at all. You are toxic, manipulative, and probably a narcissist. I told you how your past actions affected me. My mental health and view of relationships has never been the same since.
What you did ****** me up so badly it caused me to go to therapy for 10 months, get put on new meds, and switch majors because I failed one class. ONE!! One bad quarter ****** up my entire education plan and I had to start over. You apologized profusely and still did it again anyway!! Who lies about their grandma dying in order to get laid?? You even swore on your mom’s life. Maybe it’s partly on me for trusting you again. Then you blocked me when I confronted you like the ******* ***** you are.
Btw I found your mom on ig and told her what you did. She said she would talk to you, but I never heard back. It might seem crazy for me to have done that, especially since we were never in a relationship. Why did I do it you ask? Because you told me she was the most important person in your life, and I know you care what she thinks. She’s your mom and she’s never going to stop loving you, but she’ll never think of you the same again. I had no proof so who knows if she even believes me. But she’ll never think of you the same again. I had no proof so who knows if she even believes me. But she’ll never forget and it will probably always be in the back of her mind.
I’m so tired of you doing whatever you want without ever having any consequences for your actions. You just do whatever you want and get away with it, while I have to pay the price. YOU ARE SO ******* SELFISH!!! It’s not fair. Since the last time we saw each other, I have not been able to emotionally connect with anyone I’ve tried to date. I lose interest in other guys quickly. I ghost people on dating apps. I feel numb. I know it’s unhealthy for me to try and date with this mindset so I’ve given up.
I honestly feel like you’ve ruined me and you don’t even care. I was perfectly fine before I met you. It seems like whenever things start to go better for me, you get some sort of signal and come back into my life to **** up all of my progress. Why do you keep doing this to me? What did I do to deserve this?
\- J
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