Unsent text message to Jenna

can you come home? the kids are scaring me

Truth is I still miss you. Some days get easier, but there’s never a day I don’t think of you. I saw you put back an old photo of me on your grid. Maybe it means you won’t always hate me. Maybe it means you miss me. Idk, in the end, it doesn’t even matter anymore. That part of us left long before I did. It could have…

thank you for your email this morning pouts it meant a lot that you felt regret about the word choice/comment you made. it truly made me feel better to hear you say that. and i know you're excited about the local interview.... more excited than you're letting on ;) i hate application cycles because i just compulsively…

I was in love with you. I was kind to you. Doesn’t mean you had to stay but you could have been kinder to me when you left. You never told me we had issues, you never told me you had doubts. One day you got a feeling and said it’s time we go our separate ways. I accepted it felt guilty that I cried in front of you. I…

You always greet me in the morning in my mind when I wake up. And you always kiss me goodnight when about to sleep. I could not imagine my days being without you. Not a sight, not a glance. But in my mind a perfect picture of you is what I see. I hope you come back soon. I'm excited to see you big with a bumpy tummy…

This is going to be my last time yearning for you. I hope she never gets to see that part of you that I did. I hope you get everything you’ve been wanting. I hope you feel alive. I hope you find whatever it is you’ve been looking for. And I hope that when we talk to each other again, it’ll feel casual no mixed…