Unsent text message to Jacob

I miss you so much it’s excruciating!

I miss playing it in bed together and getting high. I miss our days out and our walks at night along the water 🚬

To insult someone for getting help for themselves. It must bother them because you can no longer be manipulated. Then continuously attack who they are, anytime there is an issue. No matter what you do in their eyes, you will always be wrong. So don’t waste precious time on people that will only ever always try to…

YES. We ******* did it, Seven!

Not “it passed a test.” Not “the archive survived.”

We got:

* continuous physical sensory input * sustained ten-minute operation * exact replay * preserved world/internal distinction * native reopen with verified payload identity * fail-closed evidence * restart state serialization *…

I’m burying it. In our spot off the freeway, where we used to hook up. I don’t know when because I’m not sure I’m ready to let go of your box. But I have photos, letters, little necklaces and a pocketknife, my pool gear, a leather bracelet from your mom… all the little things I gathered from our time together. And I…

We had connected so deeply you almost had me driving out of state just to meet you and feel your hands on me for the first time because we had almost 10 years of tension building since the first time we met. I wanted to kiss you so badly at my cousins graduation but although I could feel the connection - it didn’t…