Unsent text message to Laura

I’m aiming at my health again. Had an attack thrown my way which threw it off a bit. But if you know me then you know, not even my age shows any effects on me. So to kick this back into gear will be no problem. Especially if I think of all the times I was reminded by my loves that I have this magical bod of mine. Not…

How you been? I miss you still. It’s been a month since you blocked me. And I still think of you quite often. “She choose that other girl , she lost her chance” remember when you said that to me? It’s funny kuz you did the same damn thing.

You know I think not giving me an actual chance was foolish. Yes I understand…

I do hope we completely miss each other. Better than that is if you're not there.

But if you are, do not throw your tantrum when I don't acknowledge you. Don't speak to me. Don't wave or say hi! I won't see you or hear you. I'll be busy.

And please don't do what you always do and twist everything to cry foul. Be a man…

I’ve been writing letters to you at least once a week for a month.. the letters totaling to over 25 small sized journal pages.

I broke up with you and that’s the biggest regret I’ll have to live with. Our one year is coming up of our date and I so badly want to message you again. I want to give you all my letters and…

I sent that text to you a long time ago and I believe I kept my word. I held strong on the energy between us and I didn’t let it die. I believe there is something beautiful here. I believe there is something here that will never go away for either of us. I believe you are a beautiful soul. I believe you have a…

Thanks for that little nod.

I needed it tonight.

Tomorrow I am getting up early and taking care of business -- I'm going to Urgent Care.

I'm scared. I am going to show my feet, at my mom's urging, and get my medication…