Unsent text message to Susan

I'm drowsy, but not weary. There's an important difference to be had... I'm not the sort of tired I get when I can feel the cracks in my soul, the life being extracted from my bones, blood oozing from the bullet holes... I know where the time went, and I am more than content, with it. You're worth the seconds spent…

I wish I could tell you how much last night meant to me.

Somehow, in the middle of everything, it felt like we found our way back to each other, but not back to what we were. Something different. Something softer. Something that feels like maybe we're finally getting the chance to start again, without carrying…

Today i wanted to message you and tell you about a discovery i found about our favorite band.

Yesterday i wanted to give you the update on your brother.

Why did you have to make things complicated by your own demise? We could have still been friends if you didnt cross that boundary.

You'll never be his. He's everyones. In multiple cities and states. Get tested often. Please. AtM in AZ he has multiple women, kids, lives, if you're military stay the **** away.

if I sent you a question about the games today?

I remember when we first met and you talked about yourself as if you were chronically single (just like I talk about myself today). You said: "I've been single for 7 years, and I'm completely fine with it." Yeah, I know you're strong and don't need anyone, but I wanted so badly for you to make space for me in your…