Unsent text message to Amber

Well P you thought u could treat me like gardbage bc who else would want me anyways. You thought i couldn't do any better than you. Hell thats even what i thought for a minute or two. But maybe thats not the case after all. I guess maybe this old man still has got a little something left. I didn't have to settle for…

Can't believe we will have our last conversation tonight. I am scared H. Very much scared of losing that hope I was holding for you all these days. For the last time I am going to ask you if you are coming back or if you are going to let go of the most beautiful thing that ever happened to me. Maybe for you it was not…

Do you remember that night when we went out drinking and then walked all over in the cold to the other place with the live music? And then even after we got back home, we kept texting like we both didn't want the night to end. I literally keep thinking about it cuz I had so much fun and sometimes wonder if it even…

I got a 9 acre forest I’m gonna disappear to Friday til Sunday. Secluded just me and my tent. Run away with me? Just come catch up with me for the weekend?? Just a little private adventure just the two of us? Nobody would know and we can just go off grid and catch up with eachother. If by the end of the weekend we…

I will always be grateful that, for a little while in this enormous world, I got to know you. For good or bad, I loved you. I really did :)

..you? Either dancing with your sparkly rave babes, or trying to get with your friend's sister, or anything else involving a girl.

Our push-pull has been ******* me slowly, but recently it's been ******* me faster. I'm helping you now. The physical intimacy was always low, but I always had a kiss or 2 stored away for…