Unsent text message to Jesse

What's left of it anyway. It's going away. Into a locked box and I'm throwing away the key. Love needs to be a foreign concept. Something unattainable. Because my soul can't take it anymore. Everytime it breaks. I break. I loose myself. And I forget to be grateful. My love for the world will grow quiet as I grow…

Remember that time you sent me that poem? The ultimate red flag. You are one dark demented soul.

I was FR doing an invisible fly by. When I walked in and saw you. Woof. You smell good. Like your pheromones or whatever it is, hit me just right. I didn’t want to see anyone. Instead, I saw you unexpectedly too. Have a good rest of your day, and weekend. Til next time.

I know the only thing that could hurt you at this point is to treat you like you are nothing to me and you will never be anything to me ever again. You went too far this time, I'm so sick of hurting constantly from the things you say and do, disrespectful crap you say, feeling bad about myself, my body, my mind, my…

You're not communicating. I know my faults and I sincerely apologized. Do you really think it was all my fault? That you didn't have a part in destroying me? I'm heartbroken too. I trusted you and loved you with everything I had. I still love you. I wish you weren't so scared to have a conversation and tell me how you…

Remember i told you I'm from the future.? Your Wednesday is my Thursday. Your day today is my yesterday. Its hard to get your mind around bht i know you can do it. I told you that from the start. You don't have any right to hold it against me now. I already know what you will do today because it's my yesterday.