Unsent text message to Nicole

I keep thinking about how ridiculous it is that we love each other so much and somehow ended up here.

I know what happened. I know we hurt each other. I know we can't go back.

But sometimes I wonder what would happen if we just stopped being so ******* scared of each other. And tried to go forward.

I'm happy, you know…

I am more hassle than I’m worth Goodbye

feel that timeline shift

I’m genuinely starting to question if it’s God keeping me here now…

I don’t know how else to explain the fact that after so long I still miss you so much and I still have so many feelings for you. Like what else am I supposed to do…

Why else am I still ‘feeling my feelings’…why can’t I move on from you…I don’t know what…

Good girls get blocked, ******* are the love of his life. 🎤

You left for a few days and decided we’re over, that I’ll never understand. No discussions, no try just over. But maybe that’s who you always were and all I ever had was a facade. Now where I should be look forward to a future with you all I see is a blank horizon. My memories of you sullied by skulking and…