Unsent text message to Hailey

I feel off today with a bunch of anxiety and had a strange dream last night. Wondering if you feel the same way today as well it’s an unexplainable energy that I can’t justify. It’s a feeling of happiness and sadness. The happiness is coming from what I feel like the future should be and the sadness is what it’s not…

I know it’s a little embarassing, but I still check your mom’s Facebook page. You look so stunning. I love the new photos she posts of you. I still love you. I will probably always love you. I’m not reaching out anymore, that choice falls on you now. I’m still working on becoming a person that I love. I’m still…

I am realising that it’s always just been words with you. It’s never action. When you feel me pulling away and starting to move on you suggest doing something small together …. But we don’t end up doing those things do we? You assure me that you do want to , you’re just busy .

Right.

The rose-coloured glasses are coming…

Batman

i just did something i should have done from the start when you told me to but at the time i was stupid enough to think a simple google search would be good enough i looked up chemical imbalance.....

I'm so sorry

Now its probably to late…

It was real?

It felt like it... but you were so fkd up (in so many ways) that I couldnt trust you.

So many lies

So many insults…

I caught you watching me doctor. Did I offend you? Did I not do my job right? Tell me what I did. Or didnt do?

Your an enigma I am not sure I want ro dive deeper into. Your my coworker and my superior.

I hate to sound cliche, but I like working underneath you.