Unsent text message to Alyssa

It's like this, the cold heart of someone freezing the lake underneath me, when I was in that dark, I managed to get off of that lake, make hard steps forward. But one simple word from you through another of "hi". Felt like it pulled me right back to that frozen heart with a layer of ice between us. Sending that…

but then made it impossible to reach you 💔

I treated you horribly in May. My behavior was abusive and disgusting, and it was even worse that I didn’t take it seriously in the days that followed. Then I became even worse in September by continuing to contact you when I clearly shouldn’t have and when you had asked me to stop. Again, abusive, disgusting, selfish…

Meet me at the swings

You said nerrdy guys break your heart the worst. Is it still true? Its funny bc u didn't see it coming. It crushede to do it. I have been struggling with it for a month. Remember you said "he tou didn't kiss my forehead when you woke up?" Well thats why. I can't believe you thought i waa going to let that slide. What…

I miss you so much. you said you’d be the one to reach out if you wanted contact. I love you so much, I got into a car accident yesterday and all I want is to call you☹️

till I see you in the next life my love🫶🏼