Unsent text message to Amanda

To go back would be to make things right To know what to say and what not to say Not to drink and obsess so much on whether you’d pick up a new girl I feel replaceable, I always did But in the end it was my undoing I push away as far as I can so no one will come back I always picked at the things that I lacked and…

You have your dog now, and plenty of other people to use You don’t need me anymore. So please, shut up and stay gone. I don’t care how you feel anymore or what you want.

How do you have the time and energy to keep up with this like it’s unbelievable which leads me to believe it isn’t believable. **** I’m just the by-stander here watching the accident happen and YOU are the disaster.

Honey i wish i hated you.. wish i could just delete you from every part of me. I want to forget how your hands felt on my cheeks or how you always said you loved the way i looked at you when i was in lala land thinking abt how much i loved you or wondering what was going on in your head. I just don’t get how you go…

I will never forgive you for the way you treated me during the relationship and after.

We will never be okay and I will never have anything good to say about you. You are the most abusive, toxic, evil, cruel, manipulative person I have ever met. I hate you more than everyone ive ever hated, combined.

I wont ever forget…

Im not sorry. You’ve tormented me for years. I didn’t deserve it. I had to make myself move on.