Unsent text message to Lauren

Honey i wish i hated you.. wish i could just delete you from every part of me. I want to forget how your hands felt on my cheeks or how you always said you loved the way i looked at you when i was in lala land thinking abt how much i loved you or wondering what was going on in your head. I just don’t get how you go…

I will never forgive you for the way you treated me during the relationship and after.

We will never be okay and I will never have anything good to say about you. You are the most abusive, toxic, evil, cruel, manipulative person I have ever met. I hate you more than everyone ive ever hated, combined.

I wont ever forget…

Im not sorry. You’ve tormented me for years. I didn’t deserve it. I had to make myself move on.

Honestly, I’m flattered I still occupy that much space in your head. It must be exhausting wondering whether every post is about you, whether I’m looking for you, or whether something I say is secretly meant for you.

Let me make this simple: I’m not looking for you.

If convincing yourself otherwise makes you feel…

You would get up everyday and just sit there, watching love after lockup. I ******* hated that show. Who even watches that ****? A bunch of women taking advantage of a bunch of goofy *** guys that can barely jerk off. Seriously what is this ****? It's terrible. possibly one of the worse shoes of all time. And you…

We’ve been broken up for over 3 years now, and I’ve dated, had a relationship in between that time. But funny, because some way some how everytime I’m single something pulls me back to you. Last year I saw your sister at a basketball game, my niece was playing against her. But you knew that, she told you. Three years…