Unsent text message to Austin

But it seems like you don't want that. Idk what anyone wants. Idk what I want. I want love. I want to be desired by people I wish to desire me. Idek. Sometimes I think I blew all my chances at love already. The only people that want to love me I dont want. I just want you tbh. And I want you to want me. If I wrote you…

All lies.

I told myself a million lies.

OMFG.

You didn’t lie…

I saw your new profile today. For a moment it made me happy you achieved a goal, then I remembered how obsessed you were with holding power like that. Your reasoning, your logic and your obsession with zero compassion for human. I admire passion, but sir you became drunk with the idea of power.

And in a second, reality…

Dude I no you want absolutely nothing to do with me and I understand but I really think I need to clear the air on a couple things that I believe u think happened that didn’t and I have confess a couple things….. I miss tf outa yo….. I’ve moved on but miss the friendship…… I don’t wanna leave it where we did but I…

When someone tries to make you feel like you’re not worthy of them, remember: it often says more about what they’re capable of giving than it does about your worth. You are so much more than the way that person perceives you. Never let someone’s inability to recognize your value make you question it. ❤️

It’s been almost 8 weeks since you left.. I miss you so much. I miss seeing you, hearing your voice, and just being around you. I’m sure you don’t feel the same, it’s ok. I’ve always liked people way more than they like me. I still fantasize about you.. I thought for sure that would stop.. you know, outta sight, outta…