Unsent text message to Kayla

The coast is beautiful, but going to be busy. I'm not staying still, or silent. I would write heaven and earth of the things that have happened to me, the thing's people have said, done and not done. I'm better than that, and I'm better than them. That's the sad thing. Their eyes were diverted, and their attention…

I caught myself calling you perfect again. Like nothing you did was ever wrong. I mean you’re great, but not perfect. You wanted me to be friendly and casual after our relationship. You were confused when I was sad saying that I still had you. But I didn’t “still have you” not in the way I wanted and you knew that’s…

Our sad situation would be a lot different if you would've apologized and meant it. Now we're just strangers that once meant everything to each other.

I feel you inside me, like an endless spiraling galaxy that grips my soul tight. Every night I sleep you are there, either the dreams subject and center, or hanging back in the distance but always near. You once said you prey on my emotions 24/7 even while you sleep. In the depths of my subconscious you linger with…

Some mysterious reason, that is the only part of me that hasn't become more dysfunctional when dealing with you.

I took you up on your offer, would you have stayed?

Maybe good **** would have compensated for my personality?

Guess we'll never know 😔