Unsent text message to Caleb

i know we talked a bit about it last night in between our bantering but I was serious. I do want you to pursue me. make me feel as wanted and loved as i do for you. I know you say you feel the same and eventually want to do so… but why not start now? that playful intimacy we have with each other is important to…

You made me immortal bc not one god damn thing matters.

And I dont want you to be confused like many shallow thinkers might think "bla bla bla you dont make someone youre whole life youre whole world". My life isnt over because you were the only thing I had. One time you told me get a life lol and its like... bruh…

Possum creek it is then

I don’t understand why I can’t seem to get over you. After everything. I feel so much anger towards you and honestly I kind of ******* hate you… but also if you came to me and said your mind had changed and you wanted to pursue things with me… I’d say yes in a heartbeat.

I hate that you have that power over me. I hate…

I know it’s been months since we last talked, and lately I’ve found myself sitting alone with my thoughts, thinking about you. I hope you’re doing okay, especially after everything that happened between us. I don’t really know why you’ve been on my mind so much lately, but you have. I guess part of me just wonders how…

It’s because your body has tasted mine, darling. Our souls learned how to dance with each other, and once you’ve felt something that deep, you don’t just go back to surface-level **** and pretend it’s enough. You want to feel it in your soul. You want to be woven into someone so completely that you become part of…