Unsent text message to Tyler

I knew right there in that little coffee shop that you were worth loving before my cup was even empty. I didn’t ever need to be convinced of worth. I never imagined that day after your trip would be the last you were in my life. You were more than my best friend. I loved you. I truly never meant to, but I hurt you…

But that doesn't mean I don't absolutely adore you.

That doesn't mean I don't treasure every moment with you.

That doesn't mean we can't have something beautiful.

It doesn't mean that I don't love you…

I can’t help but think about you while I watch.

It's day 20 without you. I am still hoping, healing and getting ready for you to come back. I am waiting. Please don't take a lot of time to come back.

I miss you

you said you were coming back when you left that day, remember? that’s what i was afraid to tell you when you asked if i was okay. i was worried that would be the last time i would see you. i was worried you were going to ghost again. i knew you weren’t coming back. i knew things would go back to how they were and i…

I’m such a sucker for you.