Unsent text message to Adam

I’m such a sucker for you.

I’m just a coward and everything hurt so so much all those years ago. The pain has numbed since then.

Don't come back unless you’re on your knees.

You need to show me that you want me to stay though. You came back and I thought we were ok, but I feel this distance you keep putting between us. I will stay if I know im wanted, I leave when I feel like a burden.

At this point in time, I won’t love you, as won’t you So let’s grow apart, let’s drift far enough to be strangers Maybe at one point you loved me, or maybe the thought of me That last time we talked, when we said we loved each other for the first and last time Bob the fish as our witness, maybe I meant it, maybe you…

sometimes I'll speak to you as if you're here.

"hey, [your name], I did this today."

"I started a new hobby."

"this reminded me of you."…