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Hi, its been way too long since I've had the pleasure of hearing your sigh or laugh. I cant place this feeling somewhere between grief and appreciation tied to homesickness for your embrace. What I wouldnt give to have you roll your eyes at my ridiculousness one more time... You've been in my heart far longer than I realized I had a heart to live and love. My deepest fear of you feeling truly like I abandoned what I care about the most but couldnt continue to feed into a cycle of leaving and coming back. I see your deep child wound, your search for love and family and to belong. I worry about your safety and whether or not youre eating. I know that in order to fully have you in my life I need to allow space. If that is supposed to happen. But in this middle space of uncertainties I can help but hear the deafening silence of your non replies, no longer asking about me, removing my pictures.. Im confused on how I to be a friend to someone who feels like I am not their friend right now. I manifest your safety and pray to the unknowns worrying about whether or not youre sleeping safely. Please eat something. You have so much light. I hope we enter eachothers orbit again. I miss my best friend and being your best friend.
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