Unsent text message to Susan

How are you going to come back this time? Will you just show up in person? Or will you text first? Have you decided it hasn't been long enough and aren't going to pop up for 6 months? One year? Will you text an apology, or will it be a complaint about your new hotel room to completely by-pass acknowledging that you…

Why can’t you admit that? Why can’t you take some accountability and say:

‘You know what? I dropped the ball. I didn’t plan anything in advance and I’m SORRY. You deserved better from me. I didn’t mean to make you feel forgotten. I am sorry.’

That’s quite literally all I needed.

The hardest thing with accepting the position you’ve allowed yourself to be in, isn’t that you’ve moved on with the woman I knew you would. It’s that I won’t ever get the chance to truly apologize. And maybe it’s me who was always the problem but you could never imagine who I ever felt. What’s also sucks is you will…

I dont know if uve noticed but ive never said your name outloud. It feels too percious to waste saying it for the first time on something silly. Its stupid but to me a name is so intimate especially cause we didnt know each others for so long.

Everytime you say my name my heart beats louder. I like hearing it in your…

I've been busy buying stuff off Facebook marketplace. Got enough parts to build a pretty awesome spare gaming PC. I know I gave you upgrades, but a full fledged PC for you was a goal for me. I keep thinking, "Oh! She'll love this!" Then remember that part of our lives is over.

Your lease is up, I hope you move but you're probably gonna stay for the kids

The idea of seeing you fills me with dread and your ego would love this message too much

No good deed goes unpunished