Unsent text message to Luke

Don’t get me wrong I want you tremendously but I don’t know if I’ll ever fully allow myself to trust a man again after what happened and you deserve better than that

Midnight again, almost 12:30 now. I need a distraction from my anxiety. I just want to talk to you more about what I'm going through and how I'm supposed to handle it and process it. I still feel a little weird about all of it... but I think I'll be seeing you later this week, so hopefully we can sit and talk. I value…

..is there ever a future possibility of us trying this thing for real? Please be honest.

Can I even call you mine? This is unset texts but a letter is more like it. It’s been about a year since we’ve known each other. I hope you are well. That’s honestly all I could ever wish for when it comes to you. My door will forever be open for you. I just won’t be the one reaching out

You have a Mexican twin. It’s actually very ironic. And I think I’ll let him take me on a date.

Don’t be mad

I love you. I miss you. But I respect you. I'll never contact you again. Although my heart and soul yearns for you. In and out of the relationship, I gave and give you want you want. I hope you recognize your ways, and how your trauma is constantly getting in the way of the one thing you desire.

7 months in to no…