Unsent text message to Owen

Hey I know this is a random text but over the past week I’ve been thinking about us and how things ended and you’re gonna hate me for this (valid) but I just had to say something.

You spent a lot of time with me talking about wanting to be a better person, be kinder etc and for what it’s worth I actually do think…

I know you said you will never be anyone's 2nd choice but then u started banging a married man. You're 50 years old still going from one guy to the next to the next. Still trying to feel good about yourself. It hurt at first sure but now i think its kind of sad. You sure weren't my first or 2nd choice even. You were…

You're saying everything I need to hear ABOUT me on an open forum and you need to be saying this stuff TO ME!¡! I still want to be with you but i don't have any room for lies or s sneaky ******** here,knock it off or let me go to find someone who will value me in their lives as I want you to.....stop with that guy…

Why do you always take off your glasses when we talk? I literally see you for multiple hours, and you don’t do it with others. When you sit across from me, you take them off.

I mean, you have amazing eyes so thank you for that. 🤣

I wish I knew how you really felt. I wish I knew if you are just messing with my head or keeping me as a fallback. I know what it was supposed to be. We both know what it turned into. Then all it took was “Hi” that’s it then you just run back. I didn’t ask for us to happen, but it did. I’m starting to realize how…

Maybe it wouldn’t end up like this. Now we yearn for each other’s love.

I still miss you so so so much. We both know you did something unforgivable, but forgiving you was the easiest thing. I still love you so much.

But going back would mean disrespecting myself. So maybe, even after a few years, where we have grown…