Unsent text message to Abigail

Hey, you didn’t send me a birthday message this year, I was hoping you would, I did get a DM the day before though, but it got unsent, I wonder if that could have been you. I think you’ve finally had enough of me and my lack of just about everything. I am so sorry, for all of it. You’re a great person and you deserve…

Hey.

I was drunk last time I was here. Drunk and missing you.

You deserve more than drunk feelings. You deserve sober ones. I've always had a hard time showing the soft underbelly of my feelings. I know I hurt you by refusing to roll over. Never wanting to show my hand. Always wanting plausible deniability. You deserve…

I know our situation is less than ideal, and if we had waited like a year and a half things would be easier for us. I don’t want to date anyone else no matter how many times you say I can. You’ve set my expectations higher for communication, consistency and care. I can’t imagine being with anyone else at this point. I…

Its been a while hasn't it? How are you? I mean, how are you really?

Our chapter has been closed almost as long as we were together. But I cherish the memories and feelings we created between us and think of them with fondness.

I'm thinking about you because it's almost time for your trip. I hope you have a great time…

What part about I believed in you did you not comprehend? All the words I've shared with you about forever and you being my person.

Your comprehension skills of what was said, keeps circling back to me wanting the strangers we've become.

I always chose you, you never chose me.

Until Death - Like a Fool.

I didn't feel sad or happy, but I did laugh because now I finally realize how much better I deserve. I don't know what I saw in you, and I realize that you only talk to me when you need me.

Back then, when I saw any updates of you, I'd get so sad. My entire day would be ruined. Like if I saw a picture of you hanging…