Unsent text message to Evan

I’m sorry for everything I did. I know I wasn’t the greatest to you. I’m just happy you’re happy now when you found your love I’m still alone and no one wants me. I feel like an awful person. I wish I could convince myself. I didn’t deserve this.

We’ll try again in the next life.

I miss you. I know I shouldn’t. Everyone says I’m better off without you.

You didn’t even have the decency to tell me what you were upset about this time; you just ghosted me.

The insecurities that you struggled with were difficult for both of us. You said that was the reason you said hurtful things about me - that it…

Life’s a trip. Roll one for the road. Hope for the best. Do no harm. TAKE NO ****. ******.

I know I screwed up but I wish you didn’t take the step to “never speak” but our lines were too intertwined to do that - although we haven’t run into each other since you said that 85 days ago

It will eventually happen and I hope we can at least be civil in the same room because I still care deeply for you sweet 💔

The way you look up at me when we’re in bed makes me feel so warm inside. I love it when you’re with me.

I can’t do casual anymore. You live in my mind rent free.

Isn’t it obvious?