Unsent text message to Ashley

It was realistic. You asked me what the matter was and I said I was in my head all day, thinking. You asked “what were you thinking about” I couldn’t tell you in my dream, and I can’t tell you in reality, but I will tell you here.

I was thinking about you. I was distracted thinking about us and everything in between.

“I’ll be there if I can”

I hope so, please do.

I guess no answer is my answer

I dont know what to do. I dont want him to be in trouble but I cant reach out to him cause of the things he said to me. I guess if he ever decides to reach out then I will tell him .

Just know I was ready.

I gotta remember you would never apologize or anything just cruel. I keep hope just because you left me so messed up but ill just end this way. Just know c your the cause of so many hurting and myself the main f one. You did something I'd never think anyone could. I haven't lived since. Trying but nightmares…