Unsent text message to Austin

Just know I was ready.

I gotta remember you would never apologize or anything just cruel. I keep hope just because you left me so messed up but ill just end this way. Just know c your the cause of so many hurting and myself the main f one. You did something I'd never think anyone could. I haven't lived since. Trying but nightmares…

I don't like pretending I'm big and strong. I want you to come back. When I feel overwhelmed with life I just wish I had you there to lean on. We weren't even together long. Can you just come back. I looked forward to a future with you just as much as you did.

Hope you are having the best time this weekend. Pet them rays for me.

Heyyy, i miss you… the good morning texts, have a great day beautiful text, after work/late calls. But then I remember when u would forget about me and don’t bother to call or text me. Still have those “what could have been” thoughts time to time but Im proud that I chose myself and stayed firm on my boundaries.

From…

Tyler **** I miss you so ******* bad why are you doing this to me pls talk to me I’m sorry I love you pretty please I’m missing you and I can’t be without you