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Will likely be you. Maybe u won’t think me so weak if I explain my reasoning..
I don’t know if u have really acknowledged that it’s because of me you are free from your night terrors and frequent anxiety and even though the pills the doctor that I encouraged you over and over again to go see, helped and that you stopped having nightmares and felt fruitful in leaving me….
At first I felt responsible for my own suffering but I realized that you hadn’t had the courage all along to do the one thing you’d been dreading which was leaving…. And yes we could talk it out and get past this but could you in particular my dear, I’ve begun to valiantly doubt it.
As much as I want to feel worthy because of you I know it all gave you the courage to leave the fool. So yes I made you seek the treatment that made you see beyond me but I love you enough that I wouldn’t change a thing.
Because I’m glad you’re better and bold and likely all encapsulating , it’s that I know you loved what I represent that u fell for in the first place and that’s what you thought you’d look like next to me and now that you know my dark secret you left just like the rest did to me.
That’s ok babe I just thought you loved me in some way I honestly found magical and astonishing. I didn’t not want help but you made me feel beautiful regardless of my ugly. It’s ok that you’re like the rest as I always thought you should be. It’s why I wanted you to seek help in the first place 😢
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